Why is it so intimidating to even look at what most of us call pretty people?
To be completely honest, I guess it's just my own doubt being negatively mirrored, like when one inverts the colours of a digital image. I Keep forgetting that I want to be in the front of the revolution of what I call equalism. (More on that later).
Reversed, it's just a different side of the same coin however. If someone look towards me intensely, I feel the urge to look away, to hide myself, to make my self as small and invisible as possible in a physically manifested form.
I think I would like it, being a turtle, and always having this protective shield on and around my back. A portable hiding place.
Two of my closest friends told me recently that if I had a spirit animal, it would be some kind of a reptile - specifically a Bartagame/Skjeggagamer/Pogona, or some kind of a snake, possibly a python. I don't really understand this connection, but reptiles are awesome, so the connection is cool. ^^,
I think, to be honest, that if I were a reptile, I wouldn't have cared AT ALL if someone stared at me or not. Except if it was a threat.
I think I'm getting closer to something...
Fear. The feeling that's been misused since the dawn of modern human history perhaps. The feeling that it have the ability to completely abduct / take control over the human mind to its unrecognisable. We can get so lost in fear that our entire life turns into a victimised way of being, which is not really being, it's just.. I lack the words... existing on top of the earth... "Behaving"! That's the word. We put up an act, and some have such a great one that they even deceive themselves. They don't see the fear because they believe they are it. Well, let me tell you something: you are not fear, you are the universe, you are God, equally as much as the person next to you, and myself. :) <3